Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Can I get my second wind, please?

God moves in a mysterious way
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps in the sea,
And rides upon the storm.


Midlife, Christmas is a very interesting time. The joys of seeing the children's faces that morning is no match for the joy of another moment of solitude. Why is my heart so selfish these days? God has been so good.
I took indulgences on Christmas day to try to show the children that I had some childhood tv shows too. They were not impressed by Marshall Yup and the Jacksons like they were of the Thunderbirds.
It is not exactly a dark time, just ambivalent. Ride upon the storm of my heart, I pray this day. Help me to give the reigns of my heart to God in my duties remembering 1st Corinthians 13 is always an accepted gift to my family. Rouse my soul from the fatal ease of the knowledge about God without the heart to follow step to step. Wrestle my soul into the reality of the love that You consistently show, God.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Merry Christmas Quivercley!

I love the hymns of Christmas. They are usually meditations of the thoughts of generations piled upon another and penned without as much attention to the other doctrines, except that Christ came into the world sinners to save. Am I one of those sinners that Jesus came to save? Christ allowed Christmas to either solidify us in our materialistic trappings or rouse us from our "fatal ease". Am I stuck on the trappings and cannot get away from my own covetous longings for what I cannot have? Then, repentance and faith are the remedy for my soul. God sent Christmas to shake us into that. When we prioritize the worship of God amidst all of the fun and regalia. When we give and receive, for His glory, we are as close to imitating God as we can get as humans. God is ever giving gifts of mercy and grace. God is ever receiving the praise and the glory for His awesomeness. God is never proud, as we are and never covetousness, as we are. God sends Christmas every year as a sword to cut us to the quick that we may see the state of our hearts and draw near to Him. He is good.


I heard the bells on Christmas day
Their old familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet the words repeat
Of peace on earth, goodwill to men.

I thought how, as the day had come,
The belfries of all Christendom
Had rolled along th'unbroken song
Of peace on earth, goodwill to men.

And in despair I bowed my head:
"There is no peace on earth," I said,
"For hate is strong and mocks the song
Of peace on earth, goodwill to men."

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead: nor doth He sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,
With peace on earth, goodwill to men."

Till, ringing, singing, on its way,
The world revolved from night to day,
A voice, a chime, a chant sublime,
Of peace on earth goodwill to men!


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What a bunch of truths this hymn embodies. As we age and our minds grow dim of the comforts that life affords and we grow greedy of our own ways and wants, this hymn is a reminder that we are either a part of the worship of God on His day for His mercies or we are complaining about what life has or has not provided. Soul, he says to himself, give the reigns to God in this season and be grateful that though our God is a consuming fire His mercy has spared you and continues to sustain you. Do not sit in the slough of despond about missed opportunities and mess ups. Get up and Praise Him who has given this new day to grow and to learn and to imitate Him in giving joy to little ones this holiday season. Set your table and donn yourself and home and enjoy the precious gifts of hearth and home. Thank God for Christmas!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

And the Gift Goes on...

Jesus is still giving gifts to His people. We are so grateful for the mercy and grace from day to day. We are so enamored that God's salvation has been extended to us. But it is also so precious to have the ministry of the church come along side and help us at this season of the year.
Christ's church is mighty and powerful upon the earth. Thank God for the ministries of His Church.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

All the fitness, He requires...

Jesus requires one thing. That to feel your need of Him. Our self satisfaction is a fatal ease. Our self agrandizement is a damnable status. I am good enough, we think. It is fearful to imagine that the wise men from the east came afar and saw the King of Glory come down to an infant and the Holy Religious Jews of the day missed the Heavenly Light for their watching. Grant us spiritual fitness and knowledge of You and what You require, O God.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Nor of Fitness fondly dream!

Do we change our hair and our skin and our bodies because we are dreaming of fitness? Am I black? Am I heavy? Am I fit or unfit for...heaven? Only Jesus will make us all fit for heaven. There is no optimum color or hairtexture in heaven. Just one face, the face of Christ. Bodily exercise will fit my body and heart for my labors, but there is no exercise to fit my soul for heaven, but to truly meet the Lord of Glory and allow him to pardon and see the real me cleansing my sins.
I wanted to see that Disney princess movie because I remember being in the second grade and writing a story about a black princess because I hadn't seen one. I am proud, still to be Black. I am proud of the humility that God has kneaded into the race of people forgotten, even in their own country. I am proud to be American, where we can with different skin and different cultures find a common ground to work and worship. This is as close to what John saw in Revelation than I can imagine. He saw different people groups worshipping God and being one people. How can that be, but in America. Remember, me last, if you will. I remembered you first. God knows!











Sifting through the rubble of rudiments of the thoughts come to bear in the foundations of our juris prudense and our form of democracy...
some thoughts on the founding thoughts in the light of Biblical preservatives of our culture
notes from Aug 11, 2009
It is clear that America has placed its original claims upon the everlasting consolation in Christ and the Everlasting Judgement of the Father in Christ and the consolation of Daniel by using the word President. They have identified with the dearness of Daniel. It is sad that we are so blind to that which our heritage privileges us to. Praying for the Lord to bring about His will on earth as it is in heaven was a clear part of the placing together of this form of government. We have clearly been blinded by our prosperity and peace. God has given us so much and we don’t see His hand. It’s as though it is surprise party for us and the angels have put the blindfold on and spun us around and we keep saying God is not good. He is punishing us. He is good and merciful and has given us so much. We are not happy with that. We want what “he or she” has. If it is riches we want their peace and if it is mental ability we want theirs. We can’t be content no matter how much God showers upon us, we always want more. No we are not in the promised land. If the children of Israel had been blessed with such a land, they would have thought they were in heaven.


We keep our eyes closed to what God is saying trying to lord it over one another through our culture wars. We are blind to the image of God in the reflection of the many people groups. We keep feeling that God has instructed us to take dominion over one another we have a Nebby complex the lot of us.



When the angels take the blindfold of mercy off, where will we be? Instead of trusting that God is good will we be sticking our finger in His face, saying why have You treated me this way? The darkness is not dark if God is lighting through His Word and His Providences. But, we don’t study either His Word or History in the light of His Word. The founders of the constitution had one thing right about this is that if we follow the light of the Word we will be blessed and be brought out of our grossest of sins! In spite of the devil’s wiles, maybe that is the blindfold.

If insurance is the pillars that our society sits upon and this is the grindstone we want to shore up the pillars as much as possible, to protect the pillars and cause them to glorify God. He will bless when we are diligent to seek to acknowledge Him in all our ways. God this is Yours and we are not worthy of the least of Your blessing, but we honor our parents', or forefathers, putting this system together and pray that You will use it for Your glory and help us to give You the glory in the outworking of the system.
There should be a major in the histories of insurances. We should be looking at how to sharpen the system that we not imitate the Phillistines, but God’s people, in spite of ourselves. The young people, if they don’t have a vision, they will fall into the sin of “every man for himself” mentality.
Computers can take us to that point. We could fall into a complete dark ages again. Because people are set up to that kind of thing. It would be a shame with the light that we have inherited. The proper use of the litigation and the insurance system should be taught in school and the children need to see how we pledge our troth’s to eachother so that people won’t take advantage of one another or the system and will know the consequences if we do.
Ben Franklin said, if we don’t hang together, we truly would hang the economy separately. It is important to carry the consciences of the young people on the idea of democracy and on the idea of insurance and on the idea of a free market system, or the structures of our civilization is at stake.
Dewey and many of the forefathers of the doctrinal persuasion were true to form that we were beginning to educate down to the lowest denominator, instead of to the higher denominator.

When we keep reinventing the wheel of religion, every generation a lot is lost to the children. They need to study history. They need to know what is condemned by scripture and the judgments that have come about because of ignorance. Lack of knowledge. They don’t hear me as I am like Lot?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Beauty!





Charm is deceitful and beauty is fleeting, but...


Beauty is my least favorite quality. Some people get high on the facet of beauty. I suppose beauty is a useful tool for some things. People notice it. God is beautiful and creates beauty. My dad never fawned at the type of beauty that was in the world. I watched everything that made my daddy turn his head. It wasn't the light-headed beauty that made my father turn his head. There were certain particular qualities that attracted my father's gaze. I watched what made him take that deep breath and I really tried to imitate what made him happy. He couldn't see that what was beautiful to him was more beautiful to me, or maybe he could.
When someone tells me that I am beautiful, as my sister said this morning, I don't find it encouraging. That and $2 will get you on the subway. Don't fall asleep on the subway though or your beauty will fleet away as I find it doing. The pain of sprains affect your walk. The sags of added fat and wrinkles tarnish your visage, but the woman who fears the Lord will still have a beauty in her soul. The beauty of Jezabel, was so deceptive that I believe that it had even deceived Elijah. He was a man of like passions, possibly meaning that he was motivated to try to rescue the beautiful Jezebel from deceptions of the false prophets. When he found out that she was the supreme false prophet, it was more than he could bear. Beauty has an authority that little else has, especially in America. May God reach the beautiful to glory in the beauty of the Lord and the humility that God may use their beauty to reach lost souls for His glory. He deserves all of the glory for His creation of beauty and when we use the beauty for His glory, it also is redeemed!
Thank God that neither riches, nor beauty, nor any created thing can separate us from the love of God.
May the Beauty of the Lord our God be upon us, and establish Thou the works of our hands, Dear Lord!

Monday, December 7, 2009

The Church's One Foundation...

Is Jesus Christ her Lord! That goes both ways. God is the builder of the people of God into one body in and through the Lord Jesus Christ and The church as a body is committed and owing life and allegiance to the Lord Jesus Christ. God's purpose in love upon the earth is specific and directed. It is in and through the Church that God shows and showers His specific and directive love upon His people. Like the water that goes to the vines on the plant through the one medium of the root system. God has His directive means of nutrifying and delivering sustenance to His people in and through the Church.
I really don't think that we meditate on God's specific means of showing love enough. In life God lends us human love inside covenantal relationships. Safe and sustaining means of meeting the real human need of relationship. When we take those relationships outside of the heated oven of the covenants where God has placed them we are apt to get burned. In the Church God has given victory and liberty to love and be loved and war against the sins and difficulties that encroach. God help us to enter into the name of the Lord as a strong tower and find that victory that has been given to the Church in that one mighty foundation.

Friday, November 27, 2009

SOS--- Doves Eyes?

I was always under the impression that the expression “dove’s eyes” was referring to an aspect of cosmetic beauty: something winsome and attractive. I don’t think that is what it is referring to, especially in SoS. I think that it especially refers to eyes that have keen perception of the small providences of God. Eyes that can observe and perceive the smallest movements of insects or leaves. We do everything in our power to teach this element out of children. Especially in this Tech savvy environment. GWCarver was thought astute and calculating and the knowledge of the slaves of the land that they were tilling and caring for was taken for granted until the bollweavil incident. There was something endearing to Solomon that there were things that they took for granted in their culture that were God-bred that Sheva noticed and questioned. Like a dove you go the heart of the matter, he was saying. The darkness of God’s shoe in skin and in representing the humility of God upon the earth breeds a special knowledge. This knowledge and humility needs to be included in the education process somehow and not despised. We have even these things richly to enjoy. Let the poor say I am rich?
Paul seemed to envision a church environment where the educated and the uneducated could enjoy fellowshipping with one another and learning the blessings of faith and life.
We make things so mystical which are really not as mystical as that. The blessing of participating in the needs and convictions of the position of our brethren by faith is what God instituted in the formation of the Church in Christ. Breaking down the walls of partition that Babyl built.

SOS. 2

God, the Lover of His Church, through Christ gives identity and esteem to the Church. She can sing boldly I am His and He is mine. He challenges her to go beyond her comfort zone in love for Him. But, He does not undermine her esteem in order to do so. He challenges her to be all in love that she can be and He allows her to be all in love that she can be. The Church, responds in love and growth and purpose, an active purpose that for the glory of God the earth will be filled with the knowledge of God.
He finds challenges and purpose for them to pursue together and apart. She is both an individual, with unique purpose apart from her Lord and she is part of a couple led, sheltered and provided for, by His unfailing love and grace.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Solomon 6:13 You Should Be...Dancin! Yea!






13.Come back, come back, O Shulammite; come back, come back, that we may gaze on you! Why would you gaze on the Shulammite as on the dance of Mahanaim
?

Here we go around the mulberry bush...It is neither early nor is this the day like other days. This is not the dance of the other days of the years. Today is the day for the
Turkey Dance.
The dance of the Mahanaim, the dances of the angels the dances of the mothers who love their family's on Thanksgiving. Dances of love that are choreographed for us throughout the times before. When you are in step with the mothers of the ages, you can feel it. I am loving my family and I am pursuing the image of God in the dance that He does in the sunrises and in his redemption of His people everyday. He pursues us daily in His love and He prepares meals and lovingmercies daily for our delights. I am grateful to enter into the image of that love, dancing around my kitchen to see their delighted faces, as they eat.
Why are you looking at the dance of the Mahanaim? The BeeGees said...You Should Be Dancing!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Blessed to have known Christ in the Pardon of your sins.


Blessed to live in a country where generations of people have studied and shown the revelation of the Lord through their meditations of Him being sweet. We are in danger of solidifying an orthodoxy that is not warmed by love. Love that is sweet to the Lord is faithful to include care and consideration of Him. Listening to the hymns. Thinking of his goodness, singing his praises. Tune my heart to sing thy praise. I can sing in the icy coldness of the discipline of that it is time to gather, or I can sing of the mercy of the Lord forever. God called David a man after His own heart. It was not enough that God had given them words to speak to him in "the prayers and the praises" the blessings of the Lord as spoken to Moses. David's heart gushed out his own words to express his Love of God. This was warm and alive love. It is dangerous to always allow others to write the words of our praise; if we haven't the words to speak to God in private.
Warm our icy traditions, O Lord. Enliven our worship and lift up a praise to Your name and Your person, that we may not miss the joyful life in love with You that You died to give us. Seeking You and Finding You where You are, present in the praises of Your people.

...Teach me some melodious sonnet, sung by flaming tongues above...

Monday, November 16, 2009

How God proves those who love Him. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~SOS1:8


.The Beloved If you do not know, O fairest among women, Follow in the footsteps of the flock, And feed your little goats Beside the shepherds' tents.




How far will you go to search out the truth of God? He shows the truth of who will love Him and follow Him by the deceptions that are rampant. He keeps us searching for the crumbs that are left by the table of the true ones. There is no way that we can keep up with the Beloved. His truth is so swift that we are running after always, to keep up with His truth.
Where are You? Where are You? Deceivers attempt to take us out of the path of Righteousness and we would be deceived because our hunger has been awakened to truth. God proves that we are His in that we are not satisfied by the deceivers. Wolves and Thieves come out and try to sell the Gospel without truth or truth minus love and we are not satiated, we are still searching for the truth of God delivered in the love and the freedom of the Spirit. That is what God is doing in the world. Showing the love that He has for us and the love that we have for Him. It is a spectacle to the earth and to the angels.

Monday, November 9, 2009

SOS-1:7

Tell me, O you whom I love, Where you feed your flock, Where you make it rest at noon. For why should I be as one who veils herself By the flocks of your companions?


God inspires the development of His love in the earth in relationship. God is in relationship with His creation, as Creator. The Holy Spirit hovered over the waters and was in relationship with the world there in creation as well as now. Christ is in relationship with His Church, as Bridegroom. She, the Church pursues His will. She searches out His direction and His feeding. God allows the deceptions to arise to show the difference between those who want to be among the true church of Christ and those who are happy to feed their faces with whatever and whereever.
God, show me in Your Word where and what is the true food and true fellowship that You have for Your people. I don't want to be in the fellowship of the deceivers. Christ in love proves the love of His Bride by allowing there to be false companions and true ones. God, where do You feed your flock that I may be among them.

Monday, November 2, 2009

I am Black!

I am not so Black that I would be decieved with some of the things that have caused us to stumble throughout the history of the world. God has allowed us to be covered with the darkness of His shoe in color and in recognition of God's purposes in the hidden things. God has raised us up through out the nations to see the healing in things that many with lighter circumstances have not seen. I see the beauty in God and I am Black. Don't look at me because I am Black. Don't listen to me because I am Black and Proud and saying it loud, as at earlier times, but because praise is comely for the upright. Whether you want to praise Him or wonder what would happen in your experiences if, like David you were willing to Praise the God of Glory with your mind and strength? Whichever, I am Black and going to praise Him!
My own vineyard is often unkept, either because I have little means to care for them or little time. For right now I am praising the King of Glory with those little means, Don't be judged by this, you with much means. Praise Him, too!


SOS 1:5-6

Friday, October 23, 2009

Moving on from Proverbs 31 to Song of Solomon

I really think that Solomon was in deep admiration with this Queen of another kingdom and that there were many qualities that he could see in her soul, because of his wisdom and human knowledge sense. From the human perspective, I believe that God gave him liberty to use his imagination to express the good qualities that he could see in her that he could not imitate or emulate, because he was a man. The imagination of a kingdom ruled by a wise man and a wise woman was beyond him. It could only be in his imagination that he could actually have a woman comparable to him in mental and emotional acumen. They could only touch through admiration because of the limits of spiritual and physical rules of that day. God allowed this wonderful imagination of Solomon's to enter into the cannon of Scripture for our help and edification.
If there were no wiser man than Solomon and we are blessed with this imagery of the beauty of human equivolents joining in marriages, we should study it. Much mush is in there and I will show the spiritual equivolents and neglect to get into any of the explicit.
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Solomon seems to say--
I love to talk to you. I can't find anybody who knows as much about human personalities. You seem to be the equivolent of me and I never thought that I would meet someone who was a woman and who was in leadership, because our culture doesn't groom women to that level of mental ability. I never thought that I could meet a woman who could speak languages and think about the world like you do. I want you to talk for me to women and I want to talk for you to men, in this world. We could lead with wisdom and knowledge. The world would be perfect if we were king and queen. I know why your kingdom is blest. The ends of the earth cannot contain the differences that we are. You are knowledgable of all of the darker things and I am knowledgeable of all of the lighter things, the commandments and Godward things.
Why are our kingdoms separated?
It is my opinion that the desires of hunger for human fellowship with a woman that would be equal to him in intellect drove poor Solomon into idolatry, because the idolatrous nations had women who could be more than just a partner. Everytime we get so religious that we take God's word to mean that the woman should be relegated to the ignorant, we do ourselves the highest injustice. Talk for me, he said. Let her talk for me and let me talk for her. I want that language in mine. I want to be with someone that can challenge me in other areas. How could God mean for me to be so alone in wisdom like this? I don't believe that that is His will for me to be tortured and alone in this.
That is what I think that Solomon was saying, daughters. Apply yourselves to your thinking and communications so that you can be the helper in more than just one area.


***************************************************About doves eyes--
I was always under the impression that the expression “dove’s eyes” was referring to an aspect of cosmetic beauty: something winsome and attractive. I don’t think that is what it is referring to, especially in SoS. I think that it especially refers to eyes that have keen perception of the small providences of God. Eyes that can observe and perceive the smallest movements of insects or leaves. We do everything in our power to teach this element out of children. Especially in this Tech savvy environment. GWCarver was thought astute and calculating and the knowledge of the slaves of the land that they were tilling and caring for was taken for granted until the bollweavil incident. There was something endearing to Solomon that there were things that they took for granted in their culture that were God-bred that Sheva noticed and questioned. Like a dove you go the heart of the matter, he was saying. The darkness of God’s shoe in skin and in representing the humility of God upon the earth breeds a special knowledge. This knowledge and humility needs to be included in the education process somehow and not despised. We have even these things richly to enjoy. Let the poor say I am rich?
Paul seemed to envision a church environment where the educated and the uneducated could enjoy fellowshipping with one another and learning the blessings of faith and life.
We make things so mystical which are really not as mystical as that. The blessing of participating in the needs and convictions of the position of our brethren by faith is what God instituted in the formation of the Church in Christ. Breaking down the walls of partition that Babyl built.
God always had intention of redeeming lost humanity. God brought Sheva into the knowledge of God through Solomon, wisdom without redemption breeds more death. Nothing is true without the redemption in Christ.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Is Self Control a fruit of the Spirit?

There is none without Him. Self control. He has given us all things richly to enjoy and just when we think that we have ourselves in hand in one area or another, there is a change that comes about. Don't get complacent and be what you need to be.
There is forgiveness with God that He may be feared.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

The heart of her husband trusts her?

Not just money is an area of trust. He trusts you with his reputation. He trusts you with his posessions. He trusts you with his emotions. He trusts you with much of himself. Can you keep the heart of another person, without stepping on it? Without being a manipulator? Without deception? Prepare yourself to be trustworthy with what is important to someone else and maybe you will be ready to be trustworthy of that which is your own. Do want to reach to the heights of unity in relating that comes from consistent devotion to oneanother over years, the blessing of stewardship is silent but enormous.
Self sacrifice in relating costs but also pays back. Be trustworthy, by the grace of God.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Penny Pinchers for generations.

The heart of her husband will safely trust in her. Can he trust you? I wonder if I am a good example of this to you, dear daughters. Counting and mathfacts are essential, but more essential than the trust of money, is the trust of respect. Are you going to respect him tomorrow? After the first...mistake? After the first...argument? After the second? What makes a marriage work?
Is it because, he is the football hero and she is the Homecoming Queen and they stay fit and adorable for the rest of their lives? What about the rest of us? The normal looking people.
Marriage is a comradery of hearts and souls. You are the trust of the other person and he is the trust of you. People spend alot of time relating to eachother on pseudorelational vehicles like the facebook, with no responsibility to one another. Do you have any responsibility to the people that you chat with or friend request? That is not a friendship, what you do on facebook. That is not a marriage, if it dissolves after the first...dillemma. We are all getting too comfortable with disposable relationships. We are rating people on their looks and personalities and not on their obedience to the Lord and commitment to their responsibilities.

Whether or not you have run through dozens of relationships in your teens and twenties, is no guage of your personhood. Whether or not you marry, if you are a faithful friend, sister, daughter, person; you will know fulfillment. If you are irresponsible in your relationships your griefs will overwhelm you. Beware of what you are praying for.

Monday, October 5, 2009

The Practice of getting along begins at home!




Home is the crucible where love is practiced and personified. Family is the crucible where personable habits are perfected and strengthened. This is where we learn to think and act in concert with others. To weep with others and rejoice with others at their triumphs. Family is where we learn that it is not all about us. Getting along and learning to live in an environment under one governing person and with one God-glorifying goal. Family is synonymous with love in action. We can't live in peace if there is a brewing conflict.
God's Word states that He sets the solitary in families. God is the perfect silent setter. Bump, set, spike. I like to think of God in an anthropomorphism setting the solitary like a volleyball into the game. The game is Family. He keeps putting it in play and we keep thinking that the game is about being solitary. When we get solitary, He sets us into play!
Whose gonna win? We ARE!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

What, my sons and daughter, of my womb and of my vows?

What is the problem now? What are you beefing about today, says Proverbs 31?
What is the question and what is it you are begging for today. Childhood is full of requests and considerations. I am trying to answer what I can and lead you to the teachers who can answer and guide you in the ones that I can't answer.
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God has blessed me with one of each a son and daughter and one from my womb and one from my vows. I consider each one a person in that verse. Don't spend your strength on sensuality, nor your ways to that which is destruction to your body.
1.Destruction to your body, there are so many toxins that we cannot even name them.
2. Destruction to your soul is more important but don't forget.
When I say no to something, it usually has something to do with one of the above...:{

Saturday, September 26, 2009

IN His hands are the deep places of the earth!

God's concerns are large and vast. He washes dishes on the planets and stars so vast. When we are doing our chores around the house, we are imitating our Lord who daily blesses us by setting a beautiful table of sunrises and sunsets. When we are neglectful in our duties, as too oft we are; we are not being like our God who consistently and continuously cares for His own creation. Never has a planet bumped into another planet without his having a purpose and a plan behind the carrying out of such things. He watches the solar system like a Nascar race, except He is in the drivers seat of all of the planets. He spins them like tops and drives them in their courses and is entertained by such designs. It is all good, that He has created. When we care for eachother, we are behaving as He and He gives us more to control and to care for.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Shut up, and Teach!

Proverbs 17:27.He who has knowledge spares his words, And a man of understanding is of a calm spirit.
28.Even a fool is counted wise when he holds his peace; When he shuts his lips, he is considered perceptive



We are always talking about what we want someone to do. I am convicted that my mouth is not the most important instructional element to my children. I must first be a doer and then a talker!!!!!
Up a break, or down.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Walking in integrity?

He who walks with integrity walks securely, but he who perverts his ways will become known.
God does not cover for sins.
Love covers sin, for arguments’ sake. To keep strife from being exacerbated.
God stands by the people of integrity. He cuts to the core of the intention of the heart and not just, what it looks like. God knows the difference between the sins of premeditation and the sins of weakness of the flesh.
When we come clean with Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us of all our sins.
God doesn't have to cover sin. Our sin is either forgiven in Christ or still abides upon us. Where will you be, when God forecloses on the air that we breathe? God has a praise bill to be paid. The Samaritan woman became a true worshipper, in spite of her past disasterous life. The High Priest, who lived his life outside of Christ was lost in his soul. He did not accept Christ in redemption and in the pardon of his sins. Help us, Lord, not to be deceived by the imagination of the sacred, religious stuff.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Give her of the fruit of her hands?

Let her at the work of productivity and see if she doesn't represent herself aright among the producers in the society. Women are not to be neglected as ample producers and productive citizens in any civilized society. God made them male and female, in His image and He has a functional and productive purpose for them both. When we steal the produce from the woman and relegate her works to the unpaid servitude of society, we steal from ourselves. When God extracts the discounted uncounted labors, we will be the poorer for it. Woe to us, when we see how we have despised His good gifts.
We must produce what we can and make full use of the gifts and labors that the Lord has for us to complete.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Lets get back in the swing of things?

The schedule is packed. Would someone please keep the clock going? If we don't do our share, everyone suffers. If we don't take out the trash and do the other things that make life comfortable, everyone will suffer. Can we please get a little cooperation around here?
School is in session. Drive safely!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Please, Please, Don't eat the...daisies?

Please don't drink the carpet cleaner. Tom and Huck are at it again. I bet you can't, I bet I can. One sprayed it on his feet and the other in the mouth. Lord, help me to beware of my boys in this most dangerous season in their lives. Boys will be boys and boys need their guardian angels far more at this age, than any other time. All eyes on deck!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

To Heaven, with us(please)

From children’s earliest days, they should be taught about the seams that bind our culture together. We pray, "on earth as it is in heaven". We should point out what are, as in heaven and what are not.
We concentrate on some of the more gross aspects of our sinfulness and neglect some of the sublime areas, like insurance. We should have courses in family management and it should not be assumed that it would be passed down or taken advantage of people from one system to another.
a suggestion-Perhaps an entrepreneurial class or seminar day where the children play monopoly and incorporate some of the internet expressions of entrepreneurialship. We must win our children to the importance of prevention of huge economic depression as we have seen when new technology or economic bases grow out of control and the system of checks and balances is unable to grow fast enough to incorporate the new growth. Entire systems go outdated and we cannot sustain the collapse as with slavery and cotton and industrial revolution and now the tech wreck.
We have to build into the system the multidimensional speed bump preventions that will help us to stem the tides and build in protections for the older generations to be provided for without Social Security.
Social Security was set in place in a day where the majority of the families had single incomes and were reproducing themselves in greater numbers than today.

It is the boll weevil to the cotton crop of the Social Security, we already know. Our economy cannot sustain, if the entire next generation opts out of the capitalistic endeavor, because we have done nothing to win them on board. Years ago, it was enough that prejudice and ethnic pride kept an us and them status between people groups, keeping the chain rolling. We have lost that, glad to say. But that means we have also lost a great motivator for the younger generation to stay on board. If we are not better people than anybody else, why should we try to buy into a system of unity with one another?


On earth as it is in heaven. It is not good to keep poor people ignorant of the gospel, until they are rich enough to afford it. It is not good to say, if they are too holy, they won’t care about earthly things much. This would be a pagan mentality. Not rich enough to be honest yet, the poor? This is not a good or upbuilding system and every system that has been built on it, has collapsed, as ours would.
Our pillars are built on a growing consciousness that God created us and sustains us and the triune system of checks and balances is in the similitude of our great God. If we neglect the salvation of the system that is made in His image we are tempting the tasting of the graciousness of the Lord and going back on it. It is dangerous to be blessed with as much light as we have been as a nation and as a world and to use it for anything other than to glorify God with it. We already are alive to His image, in the things and patterns of state around us and still we are refusing to “wash the dishes” clean up the messes. The things that our parents couldn’t see of the impropriety, we are responsible to cover and clear. Under Moab and the washpot of the Lord, is the blessing of grace in Jesus.
The curse of Ham, would be to make fun of the mistakes of our parents. Signing out of the commitment to the system that has made the systems what it is.
We must repent. We must start at home and look closely at the things that bind our system in unity. How sweet it is for brethren to dwell together in unity. Where our unity is built on pride, it is repugnant to God. Ie, James Brownism “I’m Black and I’m Proud and I’m sayin’ it loud”. (This is my personal pride tendency...)

Where our unity is built on the similitude of God, it is winsome to God. Ie. Evangelical obedience to the commandments of God or hymnsinging or the triune political process, or the praise and worship of God in a humble obedience to Him.
Blessed be the tie that binds…
If it is not in Christian love, God has intention of having it eaten as with worms, because,”Herod did not give the glory to God”. If the world can see us and glorify the God who made us, if we don't give the glory to God, we are far worse than Herod and that would mean that we are subject to the same judgement as Herod. Help us, O Lord.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

When being a ball person, on the court,

there is a certain way that you have to be taught to bounce the ball to the Pro. It would be very "pickyune", if it were not that a wrong toss to a Professional or a Celebrity on the court could cause an unnecessary distraction of the match. So you spend time bouncing the ball, half way between yourself and the other person so that you can do your job properly.
It takes some little skill not to call attention to yourself in the bouncing to the ball. That is a service that a young person is called to do that lends some distinguishedness to the game, because people are not laughing at the silly way the ball people are acting on the court. The privilege of being that close to the professionals and the celebrities demands a certain decorum. I am very grateful for Mr. Rooney allowing us the opportunity to participate in these events. To add color to the courts, so to speak. God reminds me how low He condescends to bounce my younguns out and into my playing field now and again. This time the eldest bounced out to Iowa and is bouncing home again and God has her causes and delights in His hands. I am truly grateful. He doesn't have to be so gracious to me to have His hands on their every move, but He acts the humble part, as though I am the pro. Here is your precious ball back, Mommy. He is mighty and powerful, but concerns Himself with these low matters. Amazing Love!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

I can hit a quarter with a ball, but


Children never go where you aim them, it seems. :) What is that about? Forehand, backhand, serve, or volley, my aim is very close to the target, but not with my children. They have a mind and a direction all their own. God says, as arrows, in the hand of a mighty man. I have been putting them in the bow and aiming and pulling and boing. Here and there and every other place than where I have aimed them. They have their own directional signals, it seems. Like the geese that I saw in formation, they are more about following what I do than going where I am aiming. God give me grace to see that my tossing and my hitting or missing are just shadows of what God is doing to make them who He wants them to be.
He is the PRO. He is the service ace. He is using my children as balls in His arsenal to whip the mighty powers of darkness and create a Glorious Church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, (mixing metaphors).
This is a thinking game and there is a part that He has for us to play in rearing them to be the right person for the job in the outcome. God give us grace to rear them.

Monday, August 10, 2009

If you keep tossing and don't hit the ball... (I too, am a woman under authority)

you are not a tennis player. One is in Iowa. I don't know if I hit her there or not. Having aim and having ability is nothing if you don't hit the ball. Hitting the ball is engaging them in the issues that are directive. Putting or placing the pressure of parenthood upon their abilities. ie. "I expect you to do better this year." Making suggestions for their lives and helping them to do, what is in their best interest for their own ambitions. This is the positive pressure. You can be a goad (hopefully, in a positive sense): someone who they have to answer to, to represent what their conscience should be doing. They look at you like the ball, I don't want to be served into the court and called into play, sometimes. Still, if you are a tennis player and if you are a parent you will apply the pressure of your racquet on the impotence of the ball and it goes where you want it to go or somewhere. This is minus any spirit, holy or otherwise, it will go. How much more when we are praying to a great and mighty God and they who have spirits and souls that are submissive to us as parents? God will work His will and do His thing in the lives of these children. He takes pleasure in confounding the mighty and the thoughtful and that means you hit them this way and He aces it in your court. You lose and they win. But God wins!
(I can put the ball where I want it. Only speak the word, I pray and my family may be healed.)

Friday, August 7, 2009

Must's for the development of my boys, girls and women!

Yesterday we got to watch 2 super movies from the old days. Captain Courageous, 1937. and Tom Brown's School Days. I can't tell you how they have affected my conscience. I want my children, boys and girl and women to watch these movies and learn integrity.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

The toss, again...

If I could do it all over again, part of my toss with my children would include far more memory games and play. I would play memory with them. I would do what I could to stimulate every memory follicle in those little brains of theirs. Scripture memory is good for the soul, but all kinds of use of memory is necessary. Email addresses, phone numbers, states, times tables, visually and verbally and any other way that it could be used and utilized.
I see now that as mothers we are building impulses toward good or toward evil. Impulses like the ones that I have when somebody tosses a ball up in the sky. My shoulder automatically triggers. I want to hit that ball. Impulses like when a ball is hit as a dropshot, just a little to close to the service line. I am drooling to run up there and put that ball away. I am building those kinds of impulses in my children. Crosscourt, I said, don't go down the line, go cross court. We are building a language with our children that God will take to the next level. Children of the mother, know that mom will not go for that. My memory and my reflexes were built and added upon for a higher purpose. That is learning enablement and that is the advancement of our culture.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

The woman who teaches her son in Proverbs 31

says very little about whether or not you get along with her. As a woman, I feel a more than a little taken aback by that passage. It is so perfectionistic. It is about the reality that a man is comforted by the fact that his wife can take care of everything. The more skills that you have under your belt is the more that you will get along. Conflicts come, when there is something that should have been done that was left undone. A gracious husband can overlook a fault or two, but even the most gracious man needs the help that God has made you to be.
A right and good schedule and things being done and completed on time does much to abate most conflicts. You will have conflicts about the how to's and you will submit yourself to the way that his culture has reared him. But if it gets done and completed, most men will have nothing to say about it. Be an effective and accomplishing woman!

Monday, August 3, 2009

Her hands hold the distaff...

She is busy in the processes that are hers to concern herself with. Perhaps, now my child is attempting to build a house and learning and growing skills that will, one day make her a great carpenter and house builder. That is not masculine. Learning to do these things and watching the skills of others will grow her into a woman of usefulness and beauty. Halleluia, that as you grow in grace and beauty you are also growing in skill and sympathy to other's needs. You who have been homeless, at another time and had to have someone be sympathetic to you, now is showing sympathy to someone else's needs. That is how it should be. Only those who can see and sympathize with those who are in true need are being like God. He had love for us, when we were without strength. Christ died for me!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Learning to be comfortable to decorate or be the decorative part of the world.

In creation, The very last encouragement to Adam, as per the Bible narrative was the woman. Hey Man, this is a "looker". God had no problem rewarding Adam with something beautiful to make his days worthwhile. Be comfortable to beautify the world that God has put you in. Be comfortable to decorate yourself and have a sweet spirit. Don't let the deviancy of the wicked world make you cringe at being attractive.
It is true that sin has made the beauty of the attraction sometimes turn into something wicked. But, you can recoup and recreate the beauty of love that is intentional to one another. Do what you can to be the object of your own mans visual attraction? He should know that you do this for him. You are not a magazine for everybody. His alone. There will be seasons when you are changed into a monster and he will have to think back to your beauty of years. Many children later and many years of pulling on the skin can change you. Still in the eyes you can see what you are to one another in the heart. No one can steal that.
Don't let your sisterns be dispersed abroad. Don't let your story be given to everybody. Commit to doing all that you can to maintain the gift of marital love that is yours as a gift from God. The dividend is an aging time of comfort and care of one another. Someone whose body you are caring for and who cares for you. The body will start to decay and then, whose will you be? This belongs to me. I loved a young strong man and I love this elderly gentleman that he has become. The parts that are still as they were and the parts that are dwindling in sight and hearing etc. Love is seeing eachother as your own. I love what you have become. And I still can see you becoming, even down to old age.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Open letter to my President.

Proverbs 31- Let them drink!
Years ago there would be a lynch mob or riots and now they sit and try to calm the situation drinking a beer. Let them drink, I say, let them drink. If a person must get to be a Harvard Prof or a President of the United States to discuss Race in America in this way. Let them drink and forget their poverty. Let them drink and forget that we have paid dearly for the rights to be accepted into this country as parts of the one nation. Let them drink and medicate the sorrow which would cause them to want to come to blows with this man and or his whole race, for the complete disrespect that a young cop can get away with dissing an illustrious servant of the people and racial instructor and his President. The fact that in his youth he has no conscience to beg forgiveness of God and of his nation for bringing shame to his race in disrespecting an elder of another race. As though his poor mother taught him no morals or respect. Let them drink. Let them drink because there will never be a white person in this nation who would believe that it is incorrect for a young officer of the law to treat a President and not humble himself because the President is his commander in chief and apologize just at the shame that he brings to himself by being there in such a conflict. Oh no! We agreed to disagree. Let them drink. God will judge the nations continued persuasion of the rule of partial human status of the Black man. Let them drink. The drink means, you better be grateful that we are all civilized now and we didn't catch yo' little but out in the woods in Africa somewhere. God has saved us from ourselves in that way. The drink means we have been there and looked in a little pipsqueeks eyes and seen the disdain for ourselves and our race, no matter our position and felt like hitting him, just for the attitude. We' gonna forget that dis., my boy. The drink means we are going to, not without a drink, let bygones be bygones but don't catch us drunk somewhere one day or we may forget our position in life and we may forget that we's in America now. And we may forget, so don't catch us someplace where the eyes of the camera ain't and the eyes of civility ain't. Don't forget that this is over a beer. We is drinking to get this civilized see, because you has just cut my brother in his masculinity in a public way and you ain't even sorry see. Let them drink. and forget their poverty that after all that we is still Black in America I gladly drink with you on that disparity, still woefully obvious in our society. Thank God that we are not still left to our own savage passions.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

There is a very soul dangerous heresy

that scares me very much, bantered in Protestant circles. I think that it is more dangerous than the veneration of Mary. Had I known that the issue between Protestants and Catholics was on the matter of works, I would have stayed Catholic. Those Protestants who believe that they can do as they please and just say a "sinners prayer", after and be justified before God, must be deceived, I think. Presumptuous sin is never acceptable to God or covered by the blood of Jesus. The riches of the mercies of David, promised in Amos and confirmed in Acts and continued to today is the mercy that allows you to wish and to want not to sin and to be abhorrent of the sins that still cling. This is what the apostle meant by "shall we continue in sin that grace may abound, God forbid"! The apostle would never have stated, as some do, that living the justified life means doing as you please to your brother and claim that a "sinners prayer" or "confession" or any of the mystical, supposed coverings can cleanse you from the penalty. It is clear that, if Jesus is not praying for you in heaven, your soul is not saved. Both Judas and Peter did similar things, Jesus said Satan asked for you, but I am praying for you, to Peter. That is the only difference between the both. Presumptuous, perhaps, but prayed for by Jesus. This is an agonizing effort and if we are not willing to agonize to know that our sins are not the presumptuous kind, we are not yet his. If we are continually going to God as catholic or protestant to the "confessional" or the"sinners prayer" for cleansing, we are deceived.
Only the prayer of Jesus for us, in heaven, can save us from our sins. Nothing that I do can save my soul, Horatius Bonar...
Jesus said that Peter had the keys and in that sense (the sense that Jesus prayer and continual intersession for the believer in heaven) is the only salvation for anyone's soul. There are no magic pills to swallow or mystical incantations, effective enough to cleanse sin. No matter how effective they may seem in our emotions, they are dead. We put all of these memorized verses in our pockets to try to keep us from the sins that we commit, but, when we sin, if Christ is not praying for my soul in heaven, no amount of people praying for me on earth can save or deliver. Whether works come in conjunction with sanctification or after justification, it really doesn't well matter. Jesus is the only salvation for dead works. Works will follow the believer or faith is dead.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Finally...A Monopoly Game!

You guys know that I believe that the monopoly game is an essential prerequisite for leaving this household. If you can't see the importance of accumulation of provisions for your household and being a wise community designer, maybe, you are not my children:). I am joking. But I really do believe that. Especially because we have been poor most of our lives. If not, close to destitute and destitute. We must think about prevention of such things in the next generations.
Unscrupulous people could take advantage of your godly disciplines of tithing and giving to the Lord and will use your condition to manipulate you for their own profit. God will judge these people. You, take some time and think about how to be the lender and not the borrower. Take some time, this summer and think about how you can prevent some of the sad conditions that we have been in.
I have seen the righteous begging bread, perhaps David had not seen that. Even in scripture Jesus spoke about Lazarus who was, a godly beggar. God is not mocked by this, but it was Jesus who turned the tables on the money changers for allowing this fullscale ineptitude to continue in their midst and, in fact, being the cause of it. It was Jesus, who called attention to the faith of the widow. He had compassion on those who wanted to be pleasing to God and spent all of their substance for a sense of peace with God. He had salvation for Matthew, who was a repentant tax collector, but loving letting go of the rich young ruler, who couldn't see his sin. Hardness of heart, when there are the ineptitudes in the kingdom of God is God's business. Thank God for the grace to go through what we have endured and the blessing of merciful friends and family. You be wise as a serpent and harmless as a dove!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Am I checking in with my children, by checking my emails?

I checked her blogs, no news. I checked my emails, no news. As the old folks used to say, No news is good news.
Well, she came into my room. "Mother, I am not feeling well." I do all of the maternal rantings and ravings of the do's and don'ts and did you and didn't you and really inwardly, I am so happy that she still has some human need for me. I can't catch up with this cyber-conversant generation. Here I am and there I go, they seem to say. I can never seem to remember the passwords or my sitename or any of those things that get you into their confidence. So, I am ostracized from my grown daughter's life, for the most part. She does her jobs in the house and I do mine...until. Mommy, mommy, I feel sick! Don't call the doctor. Quick, quick,quick...A little sleep, a little vitamin C and lots of stroking from mommy and you know what? You feel better! That means that this was a minor thing. Whew!
I got to catch up on her life a little and she got some non-virtual relating.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Not just Interjections! Because Christians don't Swear, Down a break!

It might sound hypocritical, because I just said that God changed my identity, but God knows my frame and considers that I am dust.

I have found a place to let out my verbal expletives. Perhaps not curse words, but Solomon's cuss word was Vanity, vanity. I can't find the feeling in Vanity, vanity! I can't find the emotion. When I say words that come to my mind, they put me in the mental institution. So, I have to take out the garbage. Wow, people can talk without using expletives to describe things? This is a most unusual thing, to me. When we are coarse people, we sometimes learn and use coarse language. So, we must excuse ourselves from polite society to be alone and "cuss the dickens", so to speak. I am not suggesting this is something that you do, I am just recounting and perhaps confessing, some. Human beings have weaknesses and
Mea maxima culpa
. God knows who I am and if you are surprised at the stuff that comes out of you, you will not take the proper precautions against your sin. People is people, I always say. I take out the garbage and I say what I say and then I come in cheerful, having confessed to God my disgust at myself and my mess. He knows it! Now you knows it, too!

Not just, interjections!

Monday, July 20, 2009

Mary, Mary, Johanna, Rahab, Ruth...

Sometimes women, should be seen and not heard, I have learned. I watch and listen to the godly women and most of them pondered things in their hearts and you can tell that they are godly, not on account of what they said or didn't say, but because of their new identity in Christ.
I opened my mouth and inserted my foot, as usual, yesterday. Recounting something that was better left unsaid. I just imagined the kind of things that Rahab, the harlot must have said and did that was better left out of the accounts of the people of God. Caleb said, I need to have my family up in the mountains and God promised us a land up in the mountains because we make alot of noise. Thank God, He understands, even the redemption of the ungodly. To the utmost Jesus saves. If He didn't have a place for Rehab, in the kingdom of God, I would wonder if he had a place for me. Just, shut up and look pretty, Rehab. Everytime you open your mouth you show that you weren't raised among the people of God. God changes your identity and your mouth, he has to take time cleansing and clearing. You don't know what to say and what not to say. God gave Caleb an added measure of patience and distance from the others to cleanse the mouth of his rascal wife. Thank God that He has a portion of inheritance for the Rehabs and the Magdalenes who will go into a room of men and pull out an alabaster box and cry on the Lord's feet, because of love. It doesn't look wholesome to the people, but God sees the heart. God weaves these imperfections into His redemptive plan, for His glory.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Because I am Down a BREAK, I do so appreciate you're being mother's confidant, in so many things.

The mother in Proverbs 31 ran off at the mouth, concerned in her godliness with the future of her high son. She knew that designing women would make their way into his acquaintance with sordid motives.
I share reality with you. Whatever things are true...Though some may not be of the best report. I do appreciate how you bear with my recounting my missteps, at this point in my life. I often do wish now that I had prioritized the earthly and finances. Chosen the path of stuff to have to give to you, instead of spiritual discernment. People never pay for spiritual discernment as they do for other things. God is judge! He knows that whatsoever a man sows that shall he also reap.
The fakeness of many a woman's blogs does not prepare you to be and to care for the real nitty gritty of life, like God's word does.
God is real and many people have this romantic pretense of God being this victorian hero in the sky. He is so far above that it makes me barf. I am afraid that you may be swept up with this move of the blogosphere. God is no respecter of persons and you are not a second class citizen in heaven because your skin is brown and you can never look like those pictures of godliness, advertised. God is holy and mighty and it is not unto us that the glory belongs. To us belongs shame of face and confusion, but to Him and to His name belongs the glory and the wisdom and the power. Says Daniel who was, himself, in a slaves condition. When we take it upon ourselves to commend ourselves, by ourselves, among ourselves, I do wonder, if we could possibly know the Lord of Glory: who resists the proud? God is invisible and the things that he does are unsung. Many a thing that is really God glorifying is unsung. Don't ever forget that, "where no oxen are the crib is clean, but much produce and help comes from the strength of the ox" paraphrased. It is not always the beautified, awe inspiring task that God looks at. To this one will I look, says the Lord, to him who has a broken and contrite heart and who trembles at my word.
Look at the confessions of stricken motherhood, what we say when we are confessing to God. Govern your life by those things. Look at the children of the godly women. The ones who look happy although, no one can see the pleasantness of the mother. You can see the faces and know the hearts of the children. See that your husband and children have a God glorifying wife and mother and not a grumbler, like your mother. Give God the glory in your successes and in your failures.
What, my son? and What, son of my womb? and What, son of my vows?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Are we acting like children of God or children of the serpent.

The difference between the serpent children and the mother children. Serpents have no alliances. They do not travel in families. They concern themselves with the spoil for the consumption of their own bodies, not sharing.
I have never heard of a snake biting off a piece of something and giving it to his friend snake. It won't happen. Cutting things up and sharing,dividing among groups happens when we share.
The children of the women have an alliance; a cause that is bigger than self. First, they learn to concern themselves about mother and what mother has taught them. Next, they have family loyalties. Church and community loyalties, world concerns, bring up the rear. They are part of a team. What hurts the whole(in some way)they are concerned about.
When they pray, there are priorities and order to their concerns. God is weaving the new heaven and the new earth with the children of the women whose God is the Lord. When they are in their place there is consistency. When they are absent, there are holes. God has woven the holes into the pattern of the scheme of things, in His amazing grace. But, what we leave to our children, is the mass of discernable patterns of God's dealings, or the tangled web of undescernable lines to be combed out. Do we give them the equipment to untangle what we have tangled? Do we give them the comb to untangle what we have left untended?
As those beautiful spirograph patterns, the couple is the two circles in the hands of the angels, making family patterns, growing into community patterns, into country patterns , and ultimately, into world patterns.All of this is under God's eternal patterning. Each blessed interaction of the couple, either condenses the pattern or loosens its grip. We can stop the pattern at any point, refusing to dance together in the spirograph pattern, but we have to start again somewhere. We will get to that point in the pattern somewhere else along the struggle, if we live. These are the consistent echoes of God's mercy.
Obeying God, when he said, be fruitful, multiply. Rarely do people remind us that God said that. Don't be fruitful, don't multiply, it only gives us more mouths to feed, says the serpent. Obeying our first father Adam,who said to his wife "Mother life". "Don't mother life", says the world and the flesh and the devil. It will take all of your mind and your body and your strength.
The serpent sits under the birthing table seeking to eat your best conceptions. God gives us spiritual eyes to see enemies at each birth. It is more and more clear, until it is nearly a consuming passion to protect your children from that serpent. Mothering life and protecting your children from death is a passion, until God shows us the purposes for which we are here upon the earth. Building a team for God. A bunch of new spirograph patterns for the angels to adorn the sky with, for the glory of God.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Down A Break?




When I talk the children often look at me. That is down a break. I expect a return. Yes mother! I am insistent on that.
Now I have to go to the net and get all hot and bothered. I am not letting them win their serve. They are going to be down a break when this is over. I Hope.
Don't choke, don't fall asleep in the match or they will run all over you.
I have fallen asleep sometimes and woken up at like 4-2 or 4-1 and there we are I have to play catchup. Not in this game of parenting. There is absolutely no time for sleeping. I suppose I should have started playing like I was down a break at the beginning of the match. But I could not imagine that I was going to be down a break in the second half. Yet, here I am. Down a break!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

The flat ball!

Direct confrontation, I affectionately refer to as the flat ball. There is no spin there are no ulterior motives... Most children start out in the area of Proverbs 31:1 What my son? This means you understand where I am coming from and I understand where you are coming from no back spin, no side spin, no trick shots.
I remember a ball that I saw, hit by Bobby Riggs, when playing against Billy Jean King and that ball went across the net and came right back over the net onto his side. That was the ultimate drop shot. I had a warped racquet in those days and worked everyday on that shot, trying to get a ball to do that. It never did. The closest I have ever gotten to that is to have the dropshot hit the tape on the net.
That is my picture of the second half of parenting, down a break. They have broken my serve, they have broken my reasoning, they have broken my confidence, they have broken my decisions, but they haven't broken my love. I guess that is all that's left if you lose and that is why love is so much a part of tennis. love-15, next point.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Entering the 2nd half of Parenting, Down a Break!

It is wonderful to feel all served up! Your shoulder is loose and ready on the first baby and you are serving, what you feel is the best in your life. Acing and ground strokes the best you've ever felt. Healthy eating, healthy walking and taking care of the essentials as much as you can. It is easy with a little one who doesn't question your authority.
Then you blink your eye and they are thirteen and they start to serve them up, against you. My children tried all of my buttons from the jump. The woman who had the serve and aced was now down a break in the teenage years with my children.
One at a time they come on the court and laugh at my serve when I think I am on my game, they laugh and they hit it back as if they are the pro and I am the amateur. Too, bad mommy. I am going to beat you. They look you in the eye, at the break in play. They say, I am going to beat you. Meaning, I will have my way and you will not tell me what to do or have your way in the house or in this family.
What to do when the tyranny of the masses over takes your senses and they are beating you, as they are wont to do?
Serve em up!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A little lower.

Submission and headship. What a task it is to take on the role of submission. I can't think of anywhere else I would rather be, than submitting and following the directions of a godly man, who is under the headship of the God of the universe. Is there a more secure position. God is the ultimate leader and kind and gracious guide. His knowledge of me is impeccable and His provision is forever, not just for today. The man that is after him, as my husband is, is walking in secure steps and though he stumble, he will not be utterly cast down. Because he has made the Lord of the Universe his guide and guard and keeper and friend. To be that man's helper is a calling and not just a role. Halleluia, what a Savior!

Monday, June 22, 2009

God has given headship in the family to the Husband.

She is going to want to lead and direct the household. It is in your nature to want to be the boss, but God has an ordained order to the family. Praise God that His intention in the family is explicit and not still to be determined. It is not up for grabs who is the boss and who is the navigator. I praise God for the captain of this family ship and we celebrated him and his delightful presence with us on Fathers Day. Don't forget, these struggles of family decision making is growing in you a greater ability to know how to support the leadership in your household, if God blesses you to be married or to lead, if you are my son. God is good and he gives the practice sessions.
Thank you God for the captain of my family life and that I am not subject to the whims of the coffee clotch, in the discipline and direction of our family. We come from a long and esteemed tradition of godly leaders and families and follow where they have tread.

Friday, June 19, 2009

God Bless the Child...

Juneteenth, We is free! Halleluia! Thank God for the freedoms that have been handed down to us by the labors and encouragements of our elders. Harriet Beecher Stowe, Frederick Douglass, Abraham Lincoln, Ulyssees Grant etc.,fighting, growing writing, teaching and empowering us to read and be reading.
Is we free? What is we free to do? We is free to do the will of God. Before we had masters confining and selling father from mother and child from family. Now we is free to make decisions and glorify God. How long will it take us to know that we is free indeed. If Texas was last to know that we is free on earth, they must be the first to know that we is free in Heaven! Halleluia what a Savior.

Monday, June 15, 2009

She stretches out her hand to the distaff?

What is she doing? Painting her nails? Maybe. Painting her face? If need be. Her hands are capable and there is a reason that the godly mother calls her virtuous and not the godly father. Men can only see the silouette of the creature and what is done is the aftermath. Whatever she does, just let me be able to watch her. Lemuel's mother wanted the best for him, she knows what he is watching and she knows what does him well. Be the woman who learns from the godly woman. stretch out!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Her Husband's heart trusts her.

He knows that she will spend her service in his care.
Can you imagine how a house that eats out of itself could stand. If she is not about his care the pillar of their love is eating itself from the inside. God will either wed your efforts and substantiate your love or he will anhilate the attempts that you have made to commit or create something. Is the roof of the house caving in? Is the house of love collapsing? Where are the termites? They are in your heart. They are in your lack of trust worthiness on either side.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

A little lower...crazy banterings.

Sometimes I reason conversations with myself and my guardian angel. Whether or not there is such a thing is negotiable. For me, it is a reasoning mechanism as to what he or she says about things from a superior perspective, but not omnipotence and there are definitely levels of perspective between human and God. God says so. So, it helps me to have conversations with my guardian. I call him Charley.
God says He made Jesus, a little lower than the angels for the sake of our souls' salvation. I am in Christ and His perspective is eternal. Just lower than the infinitive perspective and just higher than the limited perspective stands Charley.

I said this morning, Charley, did you know that Svetlana was going to win that match. He showed me his clipboard. Charley carries a clipboard. It said Svetlana! and the score. Why would you know that? Need to know basis, he said. If Svetlana wins it sets off a whole series of economic circumstances that need to be handled in the etherial realm. I didn't want to know anymore. The end of the conversation was that Charley showed me that there are a series of numbers of angels who have clipboards with answers to the questions up to the ultimate clipboard of total knowledge of God. Nobody knows but God, certain things. Charley knows that and I know that.
God bids us to seek Him and He may be found. Where are you, God? When I win and when I lose? Where are you, in the good times and in the bad times? God will be found by us, when we seek Him. Reasoning is given to us, to use in the service of His will and if anyone tells you, not to use your reasoning; they are stealing from you. Its easy for Charley to say that he knew it was Svetlana, after the match. I didn't want to know before the match or I wouldn't have wanted to watch it. I have a feeling Charley didn't know any more than I knew. Anyway, the secret things belong to God but to us belongs that which is revealed. Let us seek that which is revealed and not leave those things unsought.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Open your mouth...






Don't bother even opening your mouth... close your mouth. That is the often commanded statement from mother at this age.
The Proverbial mother was able to catch herself and not just say shut up, as is oft the temptation. Do the right thing with your mouth. Talk about the people who cannot talk for themselves. We have had some fabulous teachers this year and other years who, through their behavior have taught just this ethic to the children. Trip to the the special olympics and training in how to handle conflicts have come up all too often in our hearing of the lessons of the day. The children are learning much of what we would have taught them and more because we live in the Bible belt. Godliness is allowed to shine in the classroom and it is obvious. God bless those teachers' who have devoted themselves to be what they are teaching. I am very grateful for every effort on my children's behalf! Especially living in a day where the scriptures and the commandments are at a minimum in public schools. God bless the children who have teachers who are not ashamed of the gospel. We are blessed.

Monday, May 11, 2009

You are not a king or a queen!

So many people live like kings and queens, here in America. We are so blessed with comforts and conveniences, that we don't even know what the woman meant in Proverbs 31 when she said "don't give your ways to that which destroys kings." Pride, pride, pride and convenience is at the top of the list of things that destroys kings. It is not for kings to drink wine! It is not for princes to drink intoxicating drink. It is not for those who have the highest judgements, to give themselves to the affectations of their senses. What does that mean in America? All of our politicians sit in judgement innebriated or after innebriation. What is a sober judgement? What is the judgement of those who live a moderate life? A life of moderation in a world of excess is choosing to live moderately when you could gouge your senses with comforts. "It doesn't hurt me a bit!" we say because we live in our padded and comforting homes. We can sit back and feel nothing in the midst of great wealth. How hard, Jesus says for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. We do not come to Jesus for the grace to live day by day, because we think, "we got this!" I need You Jesus is the life of faith. I need your grace to live in a rich land. Don't let me be innebriated by the wealth of our nation. Don't let me be blinded by the comforts of my life. Help me to truly love you and trust you and not be deceived by my own wicked heart. Your ways to that which destroys kings...? Pride, comforts, insensitivity, Sober me through access and guidance in Your Word my Lord! Help me to be lifted from the poverty of my exalted view of myself, that is poverty of soul indeed. Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa!

Friday, May 8, 2009

What? My son! What? My daughter?





And what? son and daughter of my womb and what children of my vows? Do not give your strength to the "illicit" or your ways to that which destroys kings and queens.
There is, everyday, an advertisement to give yourself, to search out the illicit. We spend so much time in one area of the wickedness of man. Instead of that, look around you. Find a problem to solve. Be productive. Don't keep walking around, looking for ways to vex your mother and to satiate your impulses. This is a preventative warning, I hope. I don't see you, but the silly things that we look at can, swiftly direct us to the illicit.
I like looking at that, you might say: cartoons, movies, pictures, idolatry, simplicity, tastes and sights that are pleasurable, only. Wrestle your senses into submission, to you by applying yourself to dutiful obedience. What is there to look at, if not a beautiful, young person? They are everywhere. They are on television. They are pleasurable. Don't use your senses, in only, that way. That is what the teenage discipline time is all about.
How, oh how, do I put the blinders on my eyes to focus them on the real and not on the fleeting? The worm on a hook, is the pleasurable sight of the fleeting beauty. Where did it go? You leave the house, you walk outside to follow the beauty and you are on the hook of the devil and know it not. If you live to serve your lusts, they will enslave you. "I will turn to this, just one time and then I will do my homework." It won't happen! Your lusts are bigger than time. If you follow them, unrepentantly, it is conceivable, that you would be eternally lost in their sway. What else is there? Where else is there to go? Mother is always saying "don't, don't, don't!" Your pleasures are like an electrical current, waiting to be plugged in, for good use. There is a good use and there is a powerful use for that good pleasure and God will give that to you; if it is His will. Ordinarily, that is the way. Until then, wrestle your passions and use your life and pleasures in other areas. Use the power for the corrections of difficulties. Fill your mind with other things to be used for His glory. Save those senses for the covenant of marriage. The real pot of gold, at the end of the rainbow is marriage. MMMMM, that is good!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The Reservoir was aglow with the




























light of the sun, as we drove over the hill that brings it into full view. Em and I, not in sullen silence as at other times; but, in the maternal banter that comes with the season of the predawn of womanhood. "71 on a paper? Are you going to take that Em? Are you going to...?" She didn't say shut up; but I know that my days of this banter is very limited and I am pushing it, with her. But, what a challenge she has been through childhood.
Like the waves of the ocean, where we came from on Long Island and not at all, like the placid reservior, where we are now, is the spirit of my freshly budding Emily. Womanhood has so much promise for her, if she can see it.
It hurts to let go of the reigns; although, I can't say that I have held them, ever so tightly. Still, it hurts. They don't need my advice. If I could do it again, I would have held her tighter, I would have sung more sweetly into her ears, at nap time, I would have gone fishing and I would never have yelled, just spanked more. Oh well, hind sight, as they say...
They really don't want me to tell them anything at all. I could get offended and run away, in my mind. I have to ride the waves of emotions and not get discouraged, when I fall off.
Morning guilds the skies and I am grateful that she missed the bus this morning, so I can be introduced to this precious child who jumped on the beds everywhere, decorated the walls of everywhere we lived and spinned and flipped all over the world with us and now is a stallwart, strong, ambitious woman. Birthday is coming and I am grateful that God spared my life this long, to see her grown.