The balancing act between the caps of wife and mother are certainly difficult.

Mommy is authority. Mommy is commanding. Wife is caretaker and considerate and giving. What do I get out of it? That is certainly the question, in this season. How do I act like a Christian mother and a Christian wife and what lessons am I learning through the passion of Christ on my behalf.
I am redeemed
First, my sins and limitations have been laid upon my Savior. I am His child and the Heavenly Father watches over me. When I realize that I am enveloped in the infinite love of a good and gracious God, it gives me liberty and freedom to love the people, whom I am charged with, out of the excess.
"Without a vision of that the people perish!" When I look in the mirror, I see a limited and simple person, who has not enough hands and not enough strength to do any of the responsibilities that are mine. I lament that I am limited and all of my responsibilities seem to be sapping the life out of me. Where is the light? The light is in the Love of Christ. Christ loved me enough to die for me. Christ has comforts for me that life cannot tell. He doesn't require that I be perfect, only loving and trying.
Where is my strength, Lord? Where is my recovery from this season in life? Is it built into our culture? Not anymore. Women live for themselves. The single women and the worldy, materialistic women say to you, bail out. Do for you. Leave them to themselves and go get a job. Its alot easier. You have excuses then. No body can blame you if you are not there? They still blame you, though. Ha, they laugh, we got you. You are a materialistic and a selfish person like the rest of us. We all are. Whatever we need to do to survive this life and sacrifice, God has an answer for us. You cannot blame God for your selfishness, though. Jesus took upon Himself the sins of the world. We cannot imitate that in total, that is for sure.
All we can do is render to God our service to our family and bear one another's burdens. Hold one another up in prayer and be there for one another in the deterioration of our culture away from the family way.

I try to retrain my mouth by looking at pictures of the past life and motherhood and wifing that worked. That is what Life with Father means to me. What do I say, when my husband comes in with arguments as he is sure to do? How do I control my tongue not to retort with injudicious speech. I can think of alot of bad stuff to say, in English and in everyother language, that I know.

Get off my back man! Do you know what I have been through? That is what I feel like saying. I must say to myself, You have the right to remain silent!



Beulah Bondi, Loretta Young, Myrna Loy, Elizabeth Taylor, Doris Day, Irene Dunn, So many women character actresses of femininity from bygone eras. How do I clean my tongue not to say the first thing that comes to mind. We don't have examples of pleasantries, as they had years ago. My mommy had many older women that took her by the hand and led her through the land mine of motherhood. In my neighborhood there were only those who were the same age as me. There were no women who discipled younger women and loved them into and through the life of self-sacrifice.

My dad told stories of the day that Aunt Dorothy came over to ask my father if my mother could go shopping with her. He said he felt so respected and trusted by that question. He was loved into staying a father and husband by neighbors, whose Christianity was contagious. Materialism, was not the priority. Raising the children and maintaining the relationship was. When the mothers are outside the homes, there are fewer comforts for the husbands for the children and for the world. I am too tired to love my family, after work. Everybody has to work and everyman for himself is the recipe for the death of our culture. Help us Lord to recoup.