The clouds were dancing and doing a jig as we went home from SC.

God was so close to us, that it was a scary feeling leaving. I never had such fear and joy that we were heading home. Sometimes, I have fear and sometimes I have joy, but the mixture was something that I couldn't put into words. I almost had an anxiety attack and said, let's take this journey tomorrow morning and that would have meant everybody would have known that I was not feeling well. I simply shut my mouth and let the journey happen. I took pictures of the dancing clouds and the drops of rain on the dashboard seemed to give us greater expectation that our journey was covered.

These times of refreshing, you know will never come again. They are once in a lifetime fellowship experiences. God comes close and He follows a pattern that is familiar for me, so I know that it is Him. I need His hand holding mine when we are in these moments. It took me back to that moment that I knew Mu, knew God. The clouds came close and drenched the beach, but we had been forwarned. Not quite as drastic as the day when Mu told us to go home when I was 5 years old. But, it was a storm that drenched us and reminded me that it was my time to be the "Mum" of my children. I received it. I accepted that mantle upon myself and commit to not allow our elderly people to lose their Heavenly Hopes. I am not completely sure that I know what that means, but I am committed to it.

I saw the "glasses in the clouds", yesterday and they were closer and they had concentration points on them. I had forgotten that my father's birthday was coming so close. The glasses always represent Aunt Gloria for me. She had told me a long time ago to look for her between the glasses. I always thought of going to heaven and having to sift through the crowds of people to find her and that would be our meeting place. I didn't think of them as coming to me regularly, but she showed them to me again, in my imagination and I didn't even want to think about it. The "book of Daniel", her beautiful play with the ladies and glasses with telescopes attached to them. I don't really understand it all, but things come clearer after I note them in my mind or on my blog.